IS OFFICIALLY END...

10 days~

open and close eyes

pop!

10 days over

i already here for 10 days

hmm

what can i say

meet new friends

but

they remind me those friends another side

will they sincerely treat meet?

will they do the same thing as the other side friends?

hmm

let it be

just doing my part here

i won't disappointed my parent anymore

and the friends which sincerely want me success

i prove they all are wrong

beware "friends"

i gotta beat you guys up

10 days here

i feel grateful

with the help of friends and family

the one who accompany me everyday

thanks a lot

i love you =P

although he made me mad some times

but yet he still the best ever

at ex-college

i learn what is life

i learn how cruel people treat you when you are nothing

i learn what friend mean

i learn how to let go

i learn that not all friend have true heart and will back stab you from the back

i learn human have two faces

i learn how to read body language

beware friends

i gotta back soon

beware of my changes

you guy will shock

and you guys will know you guys are wrong from the first

want forgiveness?

i will forgive but doesn't mean you guys can use me for second time

after all

i growing up

no matter in physical or mentally

=)

to him~

to him:

hey,

i'm really sorry

really really sorry

this time i come back didn't meet you up

i promise i will meet you up every time i come back

but this time i really sorry

not i don't want to meet you

but i been grounded

because of me forgetful

please please don't ignore me

i really mean it

this time i come back my mind wholly about you

i didn't put others in my mind

that why i forget

i just want to make you happy but i don't know will end up like this

i really sorry

really really sorry

you want to scold me cheater or liar

i don't care

please forgive me

i really sorry

PLEASE~

Doom~

i really doom this time

totally doom

the one who excited about my come back

mad at me

because i'm stupid?

keep on forgetting things

i'm sorry

but he just wouldn't listen

he don't want talk to me

even a text also i didn't receive

this time come back

my whole mind just thinking about him

there no others thing

but how i gotta tell him this?

i coming home~

hmm

officially end of chinese new year

and i'm back

i been trap in white house for 2 weeks

because of my foolish, stubborn

make myself end up here

i looked back all the news, the update, the email i missed

everyone posting about

how happy they are in this dragon year

make me so so envy

ops~

tear started to drop again

early morning

taking out mp3

sitting down in plane silently

i coming home

but sooner i gotta leave again

leave to pursue my study

2 weeks in white house

i cried, i missed

everything pass through my mind like slide show

thinking

should i gather all my friend and tell them i gotta leave

but this few month not even one come approach me

asked where i have been

sad case

nevermine

i don't need then i can live happily alone and find others friend to talk to

this day

at least someone there

excited about i'm back

i don't know i should happy or not

hmm

life~ life~

why i never have a friend that forever?

why everytime they will walk out from my life?

hmm

might is the fact of life

my destiny

i will change that

today i will smiling meet that person

that person i loved before

if you ask me do i still like him?

i will not answer you this

the answer will forever hidden in the deepest place of my heart

hmm

let face it positively

thanks for everything

i gotta start new life soon

Goodbye old life

Welcome new life

=)

Chinese New Years

What i'm doing in front of computer?
everyone busy decorating, clean up, reunion
but me?
hmm
alone sitting here
chinese new years?
not for me
althought my friends say they dont have chinese new years mood
but they still busy clean up
forget i feel alone waiting for textes
I'M LONELY!!!
this year i dont get any wishes
i know i not celebrating but i still hope someone wish me
now i know where i stand in my friends heart
i never exist before
i really feel sad and tear wanted to drop
i know my sister hate me for been special this few month
she hate me for my parent care me more
i think she will thought i purposely get my parent attention
but i not
i have hard time this few months
no matter facing friends or family
i know my family blaming me bring hard time for them
i bring shame to them even my friend think so
SORRY!
my fault my mistake
i bring shame to you guys
even ask them bring me out they also giving nonsense reason
i'm hurt
but i still have to be strong smile that i don't care
hope after this wind and rain there will be rainbow for me
Happy Chinese New Year, friends and family
hope you guys happy always

Dear friends~

Dear Friend,

I really feel disappointed right now

at first i thought is my attitude been wrong to you guy i try to change

once i change nothing bring different

i always thought you guys gotta be special to me

but i still wrong

when you guys need me

immediately text me call me

if i break promise you guys scold me, mad me

what about the promise you guys make to me

never let me alone

now even the one i trust the most also the same

that day yet scold me i'm annoying

sorry then i wont disturb you forever

happy?

today is the third day

i see how much you care

say myself will appear after i gone

let see how appear

who need who the most

need me then find me

i keep on giving never ask to return

now i really tired

i tired of serving people that not appreciate what i done

last time i wont mind wont care

but is already too much

every time cheat me i keep silent don't want to ashame you off

but i never never lie to you

is you the one who not believe

then let it be

i owe you?

wanna count who owe who

i think you guys owe me more

needed help i will be there

i needed someone there sure be reason

now your 'good friends' are holiday

then you don't need me

alright then

i gotta leave soon

i gotta leave without left you guys anything

GOODBYE and SO LONG SUCKER!